There was a time when my hair was almost white—icy, platinum, practically glowing under the sun. Every root touch-up felt like a battle, every toner appointment a desperate attempt to maintain that perfect silver tone without tipping into banana yellow. Back then, I loved it. I thought it made me stand out, made me look fierce, edgy, different. I felt like I was channeling every cool girl on Instagram, every pop star gracing magazine covers.
But looking back now, after letting my natural color breathe and embracing a warmer, more toned-down shade, I can honestly say: I’m kinda glad my hair aren’t that blonde anymore.
@fashionnova knows—sometimes a little change is all you need to feel brand new.
When I had that ultra-blonde hair, there were moments I genuinely adored it. Don’t get me wrong: blonde is beautiful. Blonde is bold. Blonde is a whole mood. But it also became, in a weird way, a kind of armor. It was something I hid behind, something I maintained because I thought I needed it to feel “fashionable” or “relevant.” I styled my outfits around it, often leaning into bold looks, metallics, and sharp contrasts that complemented the icy vibe.
Fast-forward to now: my hair is more natural, with a subtle caramel-bronde tone that feels effortless and soft. And honestly, I feel more myself. My style has shifted too. I’m reaching for cozy neutrals, muted earth tones, and pops of bright color in a way that feels playful instead of calculated. @fashionnova’s new collection fits right into this new energy I’m stepping into—relaxed but still stylish, trendy without trying too hard.
There’s a certain freedom that comes with letting go of the need to constantly upkeep something that wasn’t natural for me. When my hair was platinum, maintenance was a job. Deep conditioning masks, purple shampoos, root touch-ups every few weeks—expensive, exhausting, and honestly, kind of anxiety-inducing. Every time I caught a glimpse of my roots growing in, a tiny voice would nag at me: You’re slipping. You’re letting yourself go. It sounds dramatic, but if you’ve ever been through the platinum phase, you know.
Now, my hair actually feels healthy. It’s shiny. It moves naturally. And it matches my vibe better. It’s almost like, by stepping away from that hyper-controlled image of myself, I’ve tapped into a confidence that feels more earned rather than performed.
It’s funny how much hair can influence not just how you look, but how you feel. Blonde made me feel like I had to keep up a certain persona—always “on,” always polished, always performing. Now, with a softer color, I don’t feel the same pressure to be anything other than myself. Whether I’m throwing on a Fashion Nova oversized hoodie and biker shorts or dressing up in a statement two-piece set, it feels easy. It feels real.
Scrolling through my old photos, I can still appreciate the version of me with that bright blonde hair. She was bold. She was experimenting. She was chasing a vibe and living her best life in that moment. I love her for that. But I also love that I’ve grown past the need to constantly chase the next trend at the cost of my own comfort and peace.
Fashion—and beauty—is supposed to be fun, not suffocating. That’s one thing I love about brands like @fashionnova: they give you options to express yourself without demanding that you fit into one aesthetic box. Whether I’m feeling sporty one day, glamorous the next, or somewhere in between, I can find pieces that fit me, not some idealized version of myself.
I think that’s what this whole hair journey has taught me. Trends come and go. Styles shift. Even our own tastes evolve. What matters most is staying true to who you are right now. And who I am right now is someone who loves a little bit of polish, a little bit of cozy, a little bit of carefree glam. Someone who can rock a messy bun with my natural hair color showing through, slip into a Fashion Nova maxi dress, throw on some gold hoops, and feel like that girl.
I’m not ruling out ever going blonde again. Who knows? Life is long, and change is beautiful. Maybe one day I’ll crave that icy platinum bombshell look again, and if I do, I’ll own it. But for now, I’m soaking in the ease, the softness, the low-maintenance beauty of where I’m at. And it feels so good.
So here’s to growth—in hair, in style, in self. Here’s to loving every phase we go through, even the messy, experimental ones. Here’s to celebrating who we are right now, without apology.
And if you’re looking for a little wardrobe refresh to match your own glow-up? Trust me, @fashionnova’s got you covered.
